A Star is Born

October 22nd, 2018 It’s 1am and I’m currently drinking stress relief tea in the cup Nick used to drink his tea and drinks out of that his father let me keep. Dan saw me drinking out of it and let me keep it and it made me happy to be able to sit down with…

Painting Memories with Tears

October 10, 2018 Brian Amador Dear Nick, I don’t exactly know where to start with writing to you.. I’m still in disbelief that you’re gone and still kind of refuse to accept it.. I keep thinking you’ll knock on the door and say that there was a mistake and that you’re alive.. I think I’m…

An Open Letter of Grief

It’s overcast and muggy out right now. I’m currently sitting in my underwear eating milk and cookies like I do almost every night lol. The funny part is that I’ll literally only have like 4-5 cookies and that’s enough to satisfy me. It’s monsoon season and with all the rain and clouds I’m feeling a…

Peter Pan

So there’s this song that’s came out recently and it really hit home for me when I heard it.. Literally the minute it came on the radio it just really hit me because I could relate to every lyric. So here’s a little back story to me in case I haven’t said anything about it…

Demanding Schedule and Starting School

So these past 4 months have truly been a busy blur! As many of you know, I finally started beauty school I started at Paul Mitchell back in February and have been loving it thus far. I’ve come across some seriously amazing and talented people while in school. I became president for a product knowledge…

Disney Land/Thanksgiving 2015

So this week I decided to take another trip to California. I spent 4 days there and had plans for each day so this is how the trip went! Grab your milk and cookies or popcorn because it’s a long story lol. Monday I stayed with Tawnee and Tara Joey’s sisters. Thanksgiving was a holiday…

Trail of Love

So this week I took a little mini trip with my friend Meagan to California. She wanted to go see her friends and I wanted to go see the guy I’ve been talking to for the past 2 months. Meagan and I had planned the trip out about 3 weeks ago and I wasn’t sure…

A Different Form of Love

So tonight my roommate and I Jorge watched this movie called “If I Stay” and I must say to start this off, yes it was super fucking sad lol. The movie is about this girl who has a passion for playing Cello and she and her parents get into a car accident and the people…

Dear Joey

Dear Joey, It’s been exactly a year that you’ve been gone.. I’m not quite sure to go about writing this letter because I wish I could sit you in front of me and tell you how I really feel and express it but this is the best I could do these days. To say the…

Mommas Boy

Today was my moms birthday! As some of you might know, I’m really really close to my mom. Not in the sense that she’s heavily involved in my personal life because she’s not and I refuse to get her involved in it because it can be really messy and stressful. I’m close to her in…

Emotive and Cerebral Course

It’s 12am and I’m laying in bed thinking about anything and everything right now. It’s a cool night tonight, not hot what so ever, humid if anything. I’ve felt extremely disconnected to everything lately. I haven’t really kept in touch with anyone. I’ve had allot on my mind from so much that has happened and…

Last Goodbye+Happy Birthday

Well, it’s officially been a month since you’ve been gone.. Saying goodbye one last time wasn’t easy but I know that after this, this is it. Reality has to calm down a little.. At least I hope it does.. I felt a little more at ease knowing that your sisters and everyone around have come…

Eternal Love

What I’m about to tell you is a story, a story of my journey with Joey. I met Joey 3 years ago right when he moved to Vegas.. This November would of been 4 years of solid friendship.. When we met we instantly clicked. We bonded so quickly that it was weird for both of us…

Solitary Emotional State

It’s been a week my best friend died and I’m still in shock about it all.. I’ve cried every day and drank every day. I’ve been drinking responsibly and using it to just let my emotions out because for once I don’t want to be strong. When I’m sober I’m strong and focus well but…

Farewell letter

I’m so emotionally and physically exhausted.. March 3rd was Laurie’s awakening and Today March 4th was her burial.. All I have to say is that I’m so proud of my friend Matty for putting everything together the way he did.. He did an amazing job working on everything. I feel honored to have known his…

Iron-willed

I’m not really trying to dig up my past but I feel I really need to talk about a part of it. but There’s something about relationships and breaking up that I will never truly understand and it’s the way people act after everything is said and done. Once everything is said and done why…

Love Soldiers

I see this happen all the time It seems like I’m being put outside of the box of love due to the fact of how many peoples relationships crash without warning or spiral downward so quickly. I get scared thinking about losing someone I’ll date for a long time, it’s a scary thought and a huge risk.You…

The Pain Procedure

This morning i got a phone call from my mom She always calls me when she gets off of work to see how everything is at home and if we need anything at home so she can stop by the store. I can’t remember how we got into this discussion of love and dating but…