365 Day Memory Cycles

I really don’t know where to start with writing this. My head is such a mess these days that I’m for once struggling to find the words on how I feel. I’m in disbelief that it has already been a year since Nick passed. I really feel like I’ve stood still in time with the…

Letters from the Arctic pt.5

Sunday: The last full day I woke up to Janusz calling me at 9:30am… Before we parted ways the night before he specifically told me that he would be calling me at 9:30am to wake me up so we could go to the black sand beach where Season 7 of Game of Thrones ended. He…

Letters from the Arctic pt.4

Saturday Day 4: Snorkeling in Silfra It was the day of my snorkeling tour and thankfully I woke up not feeling sick. It was a good idea to just go home after my dinner I had the night before to avoid getting sick. I was beyond excited for this tour because of the amount of…

Letters from the Arctic pt.3

Day 3: Game of Thrones Tour It was the first night I was able to sleep since being in Iceland. My body had finally adjusted to the time change thankfully because I feel it was the hardest thing for me being 8 hours ahead. I woke up at about 8:30am to get ready for the…

Letters from the Arctic pt.2

Day 2: Valentine’s Day I woke up again from my interrupted sleep at 11am and packed my bags to now go to my Air bnb in Reykjavik. I checked out at noon from my hotel and took off. When I left the hotel there was snow everywhere. It made me a little nervous driving but I’m…

Letters from the Arctic pt.1

I’m finally back from Iceland and all I can say is just WOW. This trip was something truly unforgettable and I CANNOT WAIT to share. I’ll be breaking up the days into different blog posts because there’s just too much to talk about and I really want to go into depth about the whole trip….

Thanksgiving with Perspectives

So I’m settled in at my moms place. I’ll be here for a few months until I get on my feet again. Being at home is keeping me a little grounded since I’m around family. I can tell grieving is still very difficult for me. I feel like I grieve mainly at night when I’m…

Decompress with Company

It’s midnight and I’m currently drinking detox tea with my nephew in hopes that my allergies will leave me alone. I’ve been having really bad allergies for the past 2 weeks. I haven’t been sick in seriously 1 whole year and just when I think I dodged it, boom, sick af from allergies… AGAIN. It’s…

The Road to Getting Home

It’s 3am and I find myself writing late at night again.. I went to pink box doughnuts earlier since Nick and I used to go allll the damn time late at night. I’ll have doughnuts and watch a movie shortly so I can start to wind down and go to bed. I have Pandora playing…

We’re only Dreaming pt. 1

  It’s 3am and my allergies have been a mess all damn day long. I’m eating chicken noodle soup and drinking the ‘Breathe Deep’ Yogi tea. I don’t know what about the tea it is, but that shit always helps with my scratchy throat when my allergies start acting up. I guess now would be…

Invasive Emotions

It’s 9pm and it’s 65 degrees out. Normally it doesn’t get cold in Vegas until November, so it feels like we skipped fall and went straight to winter and it has my emotions kind of messed up. Nick and I met in September of 2015 so the times he came to visit me or I […]

Azio Corp

I recently received a keyboard from a company called Azio. I can’t even begin to say how much I love this. I had a type writer when I was a child but never did I ever think I’d be able to use a type writer style keyboard for my computer! I received the R.C.K Artisan…

Painting Memories with Tears

October 10, 2018 Brian Amador Dear Nick, I don’t exactly know where to start with writing to you.. I’m still in disbelief that you’re gone and still kind of refuse to accept it.. I keep thinking you’ll knock on the door and say that there was a mistake and that you’re alive.. I think I’m…

Change is near

This past month has really been a whirl wind for me. There’s so much going on and changing that it’s almost hard to believe how much has been going on in my life but I couldn’t be happier. The beginning of this month one of my really good friends got married and when I came…

Seattle

There’s so much to talk about what happened on my trip so in this post I’m going to try and break it all down the easiest way I can so that if you’re reading this you aren’t reading until tomorrow lol. It’s Tuesday and I’m currently at Bad Owl coffee having a Lavender Latte with…

Supernatural Occurrences

Ever since Nick and I moved into the apartment we’re at now so many strange things have happened in the past 2 years. Things that I’ve never witnessed before. Either I’m becoming more receptive to spirits and energy or in fact there are things in the home. When we first moved in he and I…

Personal Favorite Summer Time Shampoo and Conditioner.

Lately I’ve wanted to start talking about what products I use and go into detail as to why I prefer them over others and which ones I swear by. I figure now would be the time to talk about what I use on myself and what I use on my clients to ensure good hair…

Recreate

It’s crazy to me how history tends to repeat itself. 1 minute you think your this whole new person and that you’ve changed and then 10 years go by and you go back to that same person you were back then with maybe a few better modifications. At least this seems to be my case…

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26 Before I start I don’t want anyone to be reading this and feel like it’s a low blow or me calling anyone old. This is just me trying to express how I feel about age as freely as I can without hopefully not offending anyone. With just a little bit of time left of…