Thanksgiving with Perspectives

So I’m settled in at my moms place. I’ll be here for a few months until I get on my feet again. Being at home is keeping me a little grounded since I’m around family. I can tell grieving is still very difficult for me. I feel like I grieve mainly at night when I’m…

Decompress with Company

It’s midnight and I’m currently drinking detox tea with my nephew in hopes that my allergies will leave me alone. I’ve been having really bad allergies for the past 2 weeks. I haven’t been sick in seriously 1 whole year and just when I think I dodged it, boom, sick af from allergies… AGAIN. It’s…

The Last Sunday

12:05pm I’m currently having almond milk with waffles and eggs. I have a cough I can’t seem to get rid of. Don’t have a cold or anything like that, I can tell it’s definitely allergies getting the best of me. I’ve been taking my Hydroxyzine and NyQuil to try and kick it but it’s not…

The Road to Getting Home

It’s 3am and I find myself writing late at night again.. I went to pink box doughnuts earlier since Nick and I used to go allll the damn time late at night. I’ll have doughnuts and watch a movie shortly so I can start to wind down and go to bed. I have Pandora playing…

We’re only Dreaming pt. 1

  It’s 3am and my allergies have been a mess all damn day long. I’m eating chicken noodle soup and drinking the ‘Breathe Deep’ Yogi tea. I don’t know what about the tea it is, but that shit always helps with my scratchy throat when my allergies start acting up. I guess now would be…

Invasive Emotions

It’s 9pm and it’s 65 degrees out. Normally it doesn’t get cold in Vegas until November, so it feels like we skipped fall and went straight to winter and it has my emotions kind of messed up. Nick and I met in September of 2015 so the times he came to visit me or I […]

Azio Corp

I recently received a keyboard from a company called Azio. I can’t even begin to say how much I love this. I had a type writer when I was a child but never did I ever think I’d be able to use a type writer style keyboard for my computer! I received the R.C.K Artisan…

Painting Memories with Tears

October 10, 2018 Brian Amador Dear Nick, I don’t exactly know where to start with writing to you.. I’m still in disbelief that you’re gone and still kind of refuse to accept it.. I keep thinking you’ll knock on the door and say that there was a mistake and that you’re alive.. I think I’m…

Change is near

This past month has really been a whirl wind for me. There’s so much going on and changing that it’s almost hard to believe how much has been going on in my life but I couldn’t be happier. The beginning of this month one of my really good friends got married and when I came…