Date of Birth and Rebirth

I’m currently sitting at the dining room table drinking my sleepy time tea and trying to write out as much as what’s on my heart as I can. It’s a wolf moon tonight and I’m definitely feeling the effects. It’s called a wolf moon because back in ancient times, wolves would howl the most around…

365 Day Memory Cycles

I really don’t know where to start with writing this. My head is such a mess these days that I’m for once struggling to find the words on how I feel. I’m in disbelief that it has already been a year since Nick passed. I really feel like I’ve stood still in time with the…

Thanksgiving with Perspectives

So I’m settled in at my moms place. I’ll be here for a few months until I get on my feet again. Being at home is keeping me a little grounded since I’m around family. I can tell grieving is still very difficult for me. I feel like I grieve mainly at night when I’m…

Closing the Last Door

October 31st 12:15am It’s officially Halloween and my last night in the apartment.. I’m drinking my Midnight Blue tea and going to have white in a bit. I have Jar of Hearts radio on Pandora currently. All of these songs playing are really speaking to me and making me feel like Nick is still around. […]

Painting Memories with Tears

October 10, 2018 Brian Amador Dear Nick, I don’t exactly know where to start with writing to you.. I’m still in disbelief that you’re gone and still kind of refuse to accept it.. I keep thinking you’ll knock on the door and say that there was a mistake and that you’re alive.. I think I’m…

Change is near

This past month has really been a whirl wind for me. There’s so much going on and changing that it’s almost hard to believe how much has been going on in my life but I couldn’t be happier. The beginning of this month one of my really good friends got married and when I came…

Gold Mountain Beauty

This weekend I had time to try out a new skin care line that I’m adding to my skin care regime. As a Cosmetologist, I am not only in love with hair but with skin care as well. I’m really picky with the type of products I use on my face simply because I have…