The Pain Procedure

This morning i got a phone call from my mom

She always calls me when she gets off of work to see how everything is at home and if we need anything at home so she can stop by the store.

I can’t remember how we got into this discussion of love and dating but I remember her telling me how she was happy being single, she does enjoy being single I know this. Every time someone asks her if she has a bf she’s always quick to be reluctant and say hell no.

This morning i got a glimpse of her emotional side for once though, she opened up about how she’s afraid to pretty much love again and how whenever you do you just end up hurt in the long run so what was the point? She was being really tacit but I could understand what she was getting at.

I never talk to my mom about love or anything relating because it’s sort of awkward and I always get apprehensive about what she’ll tell me and since I’m not hard to annoy I know I’ll just be rude about what she has to say

but I told her that she can’t be afraid of loving for that reason and that everyone’s their own person and has their own thing coming to them and sometimes maybe you just have to be patient and wait for someone to come to you.Knowing my mom she still insisted on disagreeing and still didn’t want to know about guys OR girls in that matter haha.

I had a flashback as well when we got off the phone

When i went to take my driver’s test i remember the lady giving me the test had been with her bf for 6 YEARS and they had only fought once and the fight they had turned into a hysterical laugh because of what they said during the fight.I was astonished when she told me that and knew relationships do have hope you just have to work out the problems not bicker about them.

From there I began to think

Some people need certain other people to help them realize things in life that they’re blind to and sometimes you have to get the boot and let someone else walk into their life that they will be compatible with and that will help them through life.

I know there’s a profound amount of people who cringe when it comes to relationships and love because of the fact they don’t want to get hurt but it shouldn’t be that way.

I’m an extremely sensitive person but i can accept the fact i might not be good enough for someone and that it is O-K.I know theres someone out there for me, for all of us in that matter.I believe in patience though and that waiting and going through people and finding things out and being hurt will just make you so much more stronger.What has crying and complaining ever brought? nothing but more pain right? That’s why i think you have to just pick up the pieces and walk forward again.

There is no subsequent plan when it comes to love or relationships everything is always so unexpected that the best you can do is just give it your all and sometimes even prepare for the worst but hope for the best.I personally like loving someone even if in the end it means me getting hurt and looking like a fool for loving that person at least I did what i do best and just put my all into them.

One thing you should remember is that when you impact someones life you leave a part of you with them, something they will always remember whether it be your way of being, great personality, maybe even your hot looks? etc. As long as someone remembers you that should satisfy you if nothing else will because i think being forgotten is the worst part ever.This is why i strive to put my all into someone because I WANT it to work and if it doesn’t then I at least hope to leave a part of me with them and wish them luck.

I honestly think loves a great thing

I think I enjoy it so much because I like the feeling of caring so much for someone other than myself or someone that’s family oriented and building something with them.It can be an amazing experience with the right person you just have to be patient and smart about it all.

I know I’m a huge sap but love is something I feel very strong about

I hope everyone out there finds what they’re looking for but look within yourself first.

1 Corinthians 13:3-Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I’m not afraid of being hurt because I rather be hurt and know I’m trying than sitting back doing nothing, you have to be brave.

Quote Of The Day

“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.”

-St. Augustine

3 thoughts on “The Pain Procedure

  1. I’ve been reading your blog twice, thrice… possibly about four times.
    Not because I was bored or stuff. I’ve just been so amazed about what you’re writing about and in what an awesome way of expression you write this.
    As well about your point of view, your way of thinkin’ (as long as I comprehended everything as you mend.). Usually I’m not the person writing comments or so, but I’m so, so goddamn amazed. 😀
    So, I really admire how you handle things, how you think and how you write this all down. Even though I dont know you in anyway – just through this blog in anyway, and somehow one can’t call this ‘knowing’ – I’m often getting touched by what u write. Ain’t joking, I’m really!
    I don’t know what do write in anyway, just: I’m so goddamn amazed, I’ve been reading this blog for a while now, and I’m going to do as well in future (besides you would chase me away :P), oh, and we’ve got the same layout! :’D
    So, all the best for you!


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