Saudade

The feeling is like knowing that the one person you would call and want to call isn’t there to pick up the phone. You scroll through your phone book in search of people to call when you just want to call 1 person because of the things they’d say to make you laugh when you…

2015 Overview

2015 Another year to mark down in my 24 years of life of being one of the best years to ever happen to me. This year really taught me so much about myself and I learned the one thing I truly needed…. SELF CONTROL. I’m going to briefly explain everything. If interested to read more…

Disney Land/Thanksgiving 2015

So this week I decided to take another trip to California. I spent 4 days there and had plans for each day so this is how the trip went! Grab your milk and cookies or popcorn because it’s a long story lol. Monday I stayed with Tawnee and Tara Joey’s sisters. Thanksgiving was a holiday…

Dear Joey

Dear Joey, It’s been exactly a year that you’ve been gone.. I’m not quite sure to go about writing this letter because I wish I could sit you in front of me and tell you how I really feel and express it but this is the best I could do these days. To say the…

2014 Overview

This is the first yearly review I’ve written that I have no idea how to really start because 2014 was not really a good year for me at all. Obviously there was some good that definitely came out from this year but it seems like more bad happened than good so it’s very bittersweet…To start…

Shadows

So yesterday (technically 2 days ago) marked 2 months since my best friend passed away.. I didn’t realize until that night that it was 2 months since he’s been gone.. All day that day I felt an overwhelming sadness. The night before I had been upset still about him being gone but that day was…

Last Goodbye+Happy Birthday

Well, it’s officially been a month since you’ve been gone.. Saying goodbye one last time wasn’t easy but I know that after this, this is it. Reality has to calm down a little.. At least I hope it does.. I felt a little more at ease knowing that your sisters and everyone around have come…

Eternal Love

What I’m about to tell you is a story, a story of my journey with Joey. I met Joey 3 years ago right when he moved to Vegas.. This November would of been 4 years of solid friendship.. When we met we instantly clicked. We bonded so quickly that it was weird for both of us…

Solitary Emotional State

It’s been a week my best friend died and I’m still in shock about it all.. I’ve cried every day and drank every day. I’ve been drinking responsibly and using it to just let my emotions out because for once I don’t want to be strong. When I’m sober I’m strong and focus well but…