Painting Memories with Tears

October 10, 2018 Brian Amador Dear Nick, I don’t exactly know where to start with writing to you.. I’m still in disbelief that you’re gone and still kind of refuse to accept it.. I keep thinking you’ll knock on the door and say that there was a mistake and that you’re alive.. I think I’m…

Be Still

Today was overcast in Vegas. 50 degrees and raining. I rushed to work and it was pouring rain on the freeway. I had a feeling it was going to be ridiculous but I still had to speed to get to work. Liubi had an early day out due to a few cancellations. I was fine…

Thanksgiving with Perspectives

So I’m settled in at my moms place. I’ll be here for a few months until I get on my feet again. Being at home is keeping me a little grounded since I’m around family. I can tell grieving is still very difficult for me. I feel like I grieve mainly at night when I’m…

Decompress with Company

It’s midnight and I’m currently drinking detox tea with my nephew in hopes that my allergies will leave me alone. I’ve been having really bad allergies for the past 2 weeks. I haven’t been sick in seriously 1 whole year and just when I think I dodged it, boom, sick af from allergies… AGAIN. It’s…

Closing the Last Door

October 31st 12:15am It’s officially Halloween and my last night in the apartment.. I’m drinking my Midnight Blue tea and going to have white in a bit. I have Jar of Hearts radio on Pandora currently. All of these songs playing are really speaking to me and making me feel like Nick is still around. […]

The Last Sunday

12:05pm I’m currently having almond milk with waffles and eggs. I have a cough I can’t seem to get rid of. Don’t have a cold or anything like that, I can tell it’s definitely allergies getting the best of me. I’ve been taking my Hydroxyzine and NyQuil to try and kick it but it’s not…

The Road to Getting Home

It’s 3am and I find myself writing late at night again.. I went to pink box doughnuts earlier since Nick and I used to go allll the damn time late at night. I’ll have doughnuts and watch a movie shortly so I can start to wind down and go to bed. I have Pandora playing…

We’re only Dreaming pt. 1

  It’s 3am and my allergies have been a mess all damn day long. I’m eating chicken noodle soup and drinking the ‘Breathe Deep’ Yogi tea. I don’t know what about the tea it is, but that shit always helps with my scratchy throat when my allergies start acting up. I guess now would be…

A Star is Born

October 22nd, 2018 It’s 1am and I’m currently drinking stress relief tea in the cup Nick used to drink his tea and drinks out of that his father let me keep. Dan saw me drinking out of it and let me keep it and it made me happy to be able to sit down with…

Invasive Emotions

It’s 9pm and it’s 65 degrees out. Normally it doesn’t get cold in Vegas until November, so it feels like we skipped fall and went straight to winter and it has my emotions kind of messed up. Nick and I met in September of 2015 so the times he came to visit me or I […]

Azio Corp

I recently received a keyboard from a company called Azio. I can’t even begin to say how much I love this. I had a type writer when I was a child but never did I ever think I’d be able to use a type writer style keyboard for my computer! I received the R.C.K Artisan…

Change is near

This past month has really been a whirl wind for me. There’s so much going on and changing that it’s almost hard to believe how much has been going on in my life but I couldn’t be happier. The beginning of this month one of my really good friends got married and when I came…

Gold Mountain Beauty

This weekend I had time to try out a new skin care line that I’m adding to my skin care regime. As a Cosmetologist, I am not only in love with hair but with skin care as well. I’m really picky with the type of products I use on my face simply because I have…

Seattle

There’s so much to talk about what happened on my trip so in this post I’m going to try and break it all down the easiest way I can so that if you’re reading this you aren’t reading until tomorrow lol. It’s Tuesday and I’m currently at Bad Owl coffee having a Lavender Latte with…

Supernatural Occurrences

Ever since Nick and I moved into the apartment we’re at now so many strange things have happened in the past 2 years. Things that I’ve never witnessed before. Either I’m becoming more receptive to spirits and energy or in fact there are things in the home. When we first moved in he and I…

Personal Favorite Summer Time Shampoo and Conditioner.

Lately I’ve wanted to start talking about what products I use and go into detail as to why I prefer them over others and which ones I swear by. I figure now would be the time to talk about what I use on myself and what I use on my clients to ensure good hair…

Metal Weekend

Finally a day off. After working all week I was finally able to relax and enjoy myself. This weekend was Las Rageous, the metal festival in downtown Vegas. I was so impressed with how organized and put together this event was this year. There was like 0 trash because after every set the trash people…

Bad Owl

Today I wanted to explore a little and just get out of the house. Liubi (the stylist I work for) is out of town so I just want to relax and go out and just not even think about work. There’s a coffee shop I’ve been wanting to go to in Henderson called Bad Owl…

Recreate

It’s crazy to me how history tends to repeat itself. 1 minute you think your this whole new person and that you’ve changed and then 10 years go by and you go back to that same person you were back then with maybe a few better modifications. At least this seems to be my case…